Wherefore art thou…


I cry in my agony,
“O Patricia, Patricia, wherefore art thou; why must thou be dead? You loved me royally, as I love you!”

She answers softly from deep within,
“I am everywhere, my love, everywhere. Still one with you! Love is forever!”

Why is that part of us that is aware of being everything is hidden from us? Why does the eternal “I” that sees my heart, my soul, my mind and my body not know itself? Only poets and mystics seem to be aware of that “I am” which is within us.

We pray and search for the Kingdom of Heaven all our life. That is, the person that is aware of our heart, our soul, our mind and the Lord our one lord is searching to know God and himself. “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you” (Matthew 7:7) And so Death provides an answer, it delivers us from all our fears and unites us with God. It opens the door unto you.

Heaven is a state of being, your forever home. You feel the presence of your beloved; you are One in Heaven with everything, one with God. As Christ taught’ Heaven is within us here and now. We associate it with where we most want to be – Pat’s “GARDEN kingdom, keeping up our silent conversation in robes of joy of every hue.” It is indeed a miracle to discover Heaven is “the inmost me and you to nurse no longing for another, to forge the soul and its desire together gently, openly and forever.” The answer seems to be union with God. Pat and I finally reunite in God and Us!

I love my beloved Patricia with all my soul because my soul never stops or forgets. I love her as myself; I am she and she is me, we reach together for the ends of being. Love is stronger than Death! We let go life to be born again. Yes she is “everywhere.”

About thebows99krug

Hi, I am Eric, a retired librarian. I was born in St. Michael's Hospital, Toronto and raised in the downtown area north of the Art Gallery, south of the University of Toronto. I went to Orde Street Public School, Harbord C.I., University College at the UofT and the UofT's Faculty of Library and Information Science. I meet my wife Patricia at FLIS; our first date was on November 15, 1968. We were engaged February 14, 1969 and married on June 21, 1969. Our family includes son, James; daughter-in-law, Erin; (both writers), grand-daughters, Vivian and Eleanor; and Sonic, a very friendly ginger tabby. My beloved wife died January 7, 2017 and our 19 year old cat Pooka died January 8, 2017. I would like to hear from any other class of '63 alumni of Harbord C.I. and class of '67 alumni of UofT's University College.
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