As if to prove what I wrote yesterday was incorrect, I had a dream last night where I SAW Pat face to face and she was very real.
I borrow from C.S. Lewis “The Great Divorce” to describe Pat in that dream [oh it was Pat alright and not some unknown Lady and she was clothed!]
“…a lady in whose honour all this was being done. I cannot now remember whether she was naked or clothed. If she were naked, then it must have been the almost visible penumbra of her courtesy and joy which produces in my memory the illusion of a great and shining train that followed her across the happy grass. If she were clothed, then the illusion of nakedness is doubtless due to the clarity with which her innermost spirit shone through the clothes. For clothes in that country are not a disguise: the spiritual body lives along each thread and turns them into living organs. A robe or a crown is there as much one of the wearer’s features as a lip or an eye. But I have forgotten. And only partly do I remember the unbearable beauty of her face. ‘Is it? … is it?’ I whispered to my guide. ‘Not at all,’ said he. ‘It’s someone ye’ll never have heard of…”
We were hosting a reception for newcomers at a hall on the campus of the University of Waterloo. But the reception is not what the dream was about. It was about me seeing my beloved Patricia face to face in heaven! Yes, I have seen Patricia and felt her presence, all be it in a dream, and I still live.
I conclude with the words of Lewis’ Lady:
“‘What needs could I have,’ she said, ‘now that I have all? I am full now, not empty. I am in Love Himself , not lonely. Strong, not weak. You shall be the same. Come and see. We shall have no need for one another now: we can begin to live truly.’ ”
She will meet me when I get off that bus to Heaven and we shall be together as God and Us!