A New way of praying?

Woke this morning feeling very strange. There was something new in my being. A new sense? I was aware of knowing something momentous but not what it was. It was like feeling the end and the beginning. Feeling like something important was happening and not happening. I was feeling the “goals” of existence—what I was made for, the beginning and the end, “ideal grace” meaning a gift from God. This was not at all like I thought of God. It was something altogether unlike me. There within was something that has always been there for me. Oh, and there for me was a very real feeling of my beloved Patricia. Yet both were there before I was born and will be there for me after I leave this earth. Will the memory of my beloved Patricia remain true to her reality, to the her invoked by the pictures of her in every room? How can I be sure that the image that I have of Pat will in fact be of the real Patricia? Even the paintings though closest to the real her done at the height of our love? We prayed -still pray – together forever. This was, is a new way of praying?

About thebows99krug

Hi, I am Eric, a retired librarian. I was born in St. Michael's Hospital, Toronto and raised in the downtown area north of the Art Gallery, south of the University of Toronto. I went to Orde Street Public School, Harbord C.I., University College at the UofT and the UofT's Faculty of Library and Information Science. I meet my wife Patricia at FLIS; our first date was on November 15, 1968. We were engaged February 14, 1969 and married on June 21, 1969. Our family includes son, James; daughter-in-law, Erin; (both writers), grand-daughters, Vivian and Eleanor; and Sonic, a very friendly ginger tabby. My beloved wife died January 7, 2017 and our 19 year old cat Pooka died January 8, 2017. I would like to hear from any other class of '63 alumni of Harbord C.I. and class of '67 alumni of UofT's University College.
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