Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.


I know when you meditate you communicate with God. Yet I wonder if we have the senses to actutually “see” God? The Bible says “No man can see Me and live!” Yet Matthew 5:8 says “”Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall [future tense] see God.” We may have to wait until we arrive in Heaven. Makes me wonder if I have the senses to actually see my beloved departed Patricia here and now, face to face. I now realize that my most common experiences of Patricia have been feeling her presence, a gentle kiss and a whispered “I Love you!” —a gentle sense that she is nearby or within me like my “self” that does the seeing and thinking. I feel her presence therefore she is presence within! ‘There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy’

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In the beginning


Some say that given the vastness, the beyond infinity of the universe there must be other intelligence somewhere else besides earth. Then they add, if this is so statistically, why have we not detected such life? The answer, my friend, is that we have, and it is right here all about us. What is it that the founders of our great religions and our philosophers are talking about if not intelligence that is communicating with us from beyond here and now? Intelligence exists through out the universe in the relationships binding matter together and in the laws of physics. Jews, Christians and Muslims call that intelligence God, Hindus Ishta Devata, Buddhists call their divine beings devas. Who is to say elsewhere in the universe other intelligent life have not found the same underlying intelligence and are more interested in communicating with it than with us? We are a young life form on a young planet circling a young small star. Older civilizations may be more interested in seeking God than in seeking us. It is our vanity and our ‘science’ that holds us back from enlightenment and true knowledge.

“Asking what came before the Big Bang is meaningless, according to the no-boundary proposal, because there is no notion of time available to refer to,” Hawking said in a lecture at the Pontifical Academy in 2016, a year and a half before his death. “It would be like asking what lies south of the South Pole.” Sounds to me that Hawking is saying there was no beginning. I am not a physicist but in a paper by Turok, Job Feldbrugge of the Perimeter Institute, and Jean-Luc Lehners of the Max Planck Institute for Gravitational Physics wrote: “We discovered that it just failed miserably,” Turok said. “It was just not possible quantum mechanically for a universe to start in the way they imagined.” The trio checked their math and queried their underlying assumptions before going public, but “unfortunately,” Turok said, “it just seemed to be inescapable that the Hartle-Hawking proposal was a disaster.” If our Perimeter Institute says this who am I to argue. I accept the Bible’s “In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. [2] And the earth was without form, and void; and darkness was upon the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.”

I also accept that We did not evolve from other lower forms of life. We were created directly by God to represent Him on the earth and have dominion over every other creation in His name). And Proverbs 8:22-30: “The LORD created me as the beginning of his works, before his deeds of long ago. From eternity I was appointed, from the beginning, from before the world existed. When there were no deep oceans I was born, when there were no springs overflowing with water; before the mountains were set in place – before the hills – I was born, before he made the earth and its fields, or the beginning of the dust of the world. When he established the heavens, I was there; when he marked out the horizon over the face of the deep, when he established the clouds above, when the fountains of the deep grew strong, when he gave the sea his decree that the waters should not pass over his command, when he marked out the foundations of the earth, then I was beside him as a master craftsman, and I was his delight day by day, rejoicing before him at all times, rejoicing in the habitable part of his earth, and delighting in its people.”

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The Resurrection, thoughts on.


The Resurrection of Christ, is the central doctrine of Christianity. It is what Christianity is all about — the belief that Jesus Christ was raised from the dead on the third day after his Crucifixion and that through his conquering of death all believers will subsequently share in his victory. To be a Christian you must die and be reborn. Think about that — you must die! Dispossession is not enough! “Therefore, I say unto you, take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?” [Matthew 6:25, KJV]You have to die to be reborn! That is what the Gospel of John is calling on us to do. That is more – much, much more than dispossession and displacing ourselves socially, giving up your possessions, becoming a hermit. It is actually giving up your life. To actually die to this world’s consumerism and the pursuit wealth. It is becoming One with God and listening to that voice within you – the spirit sent by Christ, the third person of the Trinity. It is to be reborn. Jesus says, “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again” [John 3:3] It is to be reborn into the spiritual union of the members of the Christian Church, living and the dead. Being One with God is Perfect freedom – Freedom is not the right to do what we want, but the ability to do what we ought. · Without Christ, we are slaves to sin, unable to do what is right. “For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death.” [Romans 8:2]

“ASHAMED OF DEATH :The world, knowing how all our real investments are beyond the grave, might expect us to be less concerned than other people who go in for what is called Higher Thought and tell us that “death doesn’t matter;” but we “are not high- minded,” and we follow One who stood and wept at the grave of Lazarus – not surely, because He was grieved that Mary and Martha wept, and sorrowed for their lack of faith (though some thus interpret) but because death, the punishment of sin, is even more horrible in his eyes than in ours. The nature which He had created as God the nature which He had assumed as man, lay there before Him in its ignominy; a foul smell, food for worms. Though He was to revive it a moment later, He wept at the shame; if I may here quote a writer of my own communion, “I am not so much afraid of death as ashamed of it.” And that brings us again to the paradox. Of all men, we hope most of death; yet nothing will reconcile us to – well, its unnaturalness. We know that we were not made for it; we know how it crept into our destiny ais an intruder; and we know Who has defeated it. Because Our Lord is risen, we know that on one level it is an enemy already risen armed; but because we know that the natural level also is God’s creation, we cannot cease to fight against the death which mars it, as against all those other blemishes upon it, against pain and poverty, barbarism and ignorance. Because we love something else more than this world better than those who know no other. ” — From “Some Thoughts,” God in the Dock –C.S. Lewis

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Soul to soul with Love!


Communication soul to soul has been much on my mind since my beloved Patricia Bow died. I have aways believed it is possible. I believe what makes a married couple one is the ability to transmit directly words, emotions, or images to each other’s mind. When Pat was alive there definitely were times we seemed to communicate mind to mind. Now days I believe she and I communicate in my dreams. Last night (I have been thinking about this all day) in my dreams I was surprised by a very strong mental connection with Pat. It was not our usual quiet way of communicating when she was alive. It was like a bolt of lighting – strong and intense and powerful, like first love itself but. more powerful and kind of frightening as if a lot more powerful Pat was actually in my presence bludgeoning me with her presence. We were dancing to the rhythms of our deepest selves. Yes I was all shook up! And yes we were ‘God and Us!’ We were chai – alive and living – one with each other!

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To Love Truly


I need some help with this. Yes I am aware of my thinking. Yes I feel Patricia Bow lives and loves within me and in the arms of Christ. And Yes I feel her presence daily. Love is forever there is no end! But in that cavern inside my head, where is the God within? It is very dark in this cavern. Where is God? I pray, Heavenly Father, through Jesus Christ send your Holy Spirit to fill me with the light promised in Pentecost; that I may be a channel of the love of God in the world. I believe, help me in my unbelief. Light my darkness. Amen.

Much to my surprize, in that cavern in my head, it is not dark; there is light! There is no sun, no stars only the radiant abyss that surrounds, that emanates from our (Pat and I) oneness with God! Delicious freshness; light without a source. The dream tonight is of Pat and I going swimming at Wasaga Beach. Hand in hand we walk into the still water in the pearl white/blue light. “What needs could we have, … we are full now, not empty. We are in Love Himself, not lonely. Strong, not weak… we have begun to love truly.” [apologies to C.S. Lewis ‘The Great Divorce’]

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Those that drink the water that I will give them will never be thirsty again.


Patricia and I were friends, classmates, a couple, lovers, husband and wife, companions but there is more deep within. A mystic union. a spiritual presence, a quiet love and yes what she described as hermits together. Most important we seemed to have found a place with God – what C.S. Lewis calls God and us. Think of the soul as an immortal entity within us that goes on living after death and remains joined by God in marriage forever. The emphasis placed on life, not death. Ecclesiastes 12:7: “the dust returns to the earth, where it once was, and the soul returns to God who gave it.” God is Love and all the joys of heaven flow from the joys of marriage love like sweet water from a running spring.

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Joined by God


What does Love actually feel like? Both Pat and I developed a sense of calm familiarity, stronger than friendship and more intimate. We felt grounded and content in each others presence. There was and is a divine force telling us we were on the right path. Yes we felt God had joined us together as ONE yet we were still two independent persons — dare I say like the Trinity. OK I am living now without her physical presence; but quite honestly I don’t want to I need her spiritual presence in my life. Love really is forever! A woman’s heart should be so entwined in God that a man can only find her by seeking God. Yes God is LOVE! Amen.

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God and us!


There are two souls you know, that every married couple knows, you and the spouse God joined you with as one with each other and himself. In creation and in marriage God made/makes two one. We are from the beginning one with each other and God – God and us. We put ourselves in his hands for this he created us. He is perfect — perfect in love, wisdom, joy, beauty, and immortality. In marriage we are so knit together in the love of God and us that others say “Look how they love each other.” God has brought us together in complete unity. Indeed God is Love and Love is God. “Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.” [1 John 4:7]

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A taste of Heaven?


“I order you, O sleeper, to awake. I did not create you to be held a prisoner in hell. Rise from the dead, for I am the life of the dead. Rise up, work of my hands, you who were created in my image.” From St. John the Evangelist’s Office of Readings

Could it be that our dreams of our departed beloved are actual small finite experiences of what it will be like when we join her in Heaven? It is a Given that there is an afterlife; the empty tomb is one of the great proofs that Christ has risen from the dead and that we will too if it is God’s will.

In Acts 2:17 “… God declares that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams…” In the Bible, there are other passages where dreams are a taste of what is to be:” … behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, “Joseph, son of David, do not fear to take Mary as your wife, for that which is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit.” [Matthew 1:20]

You still love your spouse in Heaven; you shall still love your beloved spouse because the very nature of God is Love and God has joined you together as one! Marriage was created by God and you are joined together as ONE – two persons but one entity.  Every so often your loved ones will open the door from Heaven and visit you in a Dream. Just to whipper “I love you still” and to remind you they are still with you, just in a different way. She is letting you know she is okay, and still a part of your life.  Browning was right, “I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.” Yes, these dreams are a gift from God for God is Love!

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Quiet Love … eyes to see and words to tell


Before we married Pat wrote: “there seems to be quite a bit of harmony between our personalities.” What did that mean? The healthiest way two people can interact with each other is to be close and at the same time to be truly interdependent. This is where two people, actually like each other and become involved with each other, but with neither sacrificing themselves or compromising their values. What they have is a balanced relationship, and unfortunately it is not all that common. It develops into what we had, Quiet Love. Quiet love primarily means feeling safe and comfortable, experiencing new stages of life, growing personally and as a couple, and supporting each other. Patricia and I were lucky enough to discover that quiet, intense love that is basic to life itself! We had the eyes to see and the words to tell the truths that are most real to each other.

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