Soul to soul with Love!


Communication soul to soul has been much on my mind since my beloved Patricia Bow died. I have aways believed it is possible. I believe what makes a married couple one is the ability to transmit directly words, emotions, or images to each other’s mind. When Pat was alive there definitely were times we seemed to communicate mind to mind. Now days I believe she and I communicate in my dreams. Last night (I have been thinking about this all day) in my dreams I was surprised by a very strong mental connection with Pat. It was not our usual quiet way of communicating when she was alive. It was like a bolt of lighting – strong and intense and powerful, like first love itself but. more powerful and kind of frightening as if a lot more powerful Pat was actually in my presence bludgeoning me with her presence. We were dancing to the rhythms of our deepest selves. Yes I was all shook up! And yes we were ‘God and Us!’ We were chai – alive and living – one with each other!

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To Love Truly


I need some help with this. Yes I am aware of my thinking. Yes I feel Patricia Bow lives and loves within me and in the arms of Christ. And Yes I feel her presence daily. Love is forever there is no end! But in that cavern inside my head, where is the God within? It is very dark in this cavern. Where is God? I pray, Heavenly Father, through Jesus Christ send your Holy Spirit to fill me with the light promised in Pentecost; that I may be a channel of the love of God in the world. I believe, help me in my unbelief. Light my darkness. Amen.

Much to my surprize, in that cavern in my head, it is not dark; there is light! There is no sun, no stars only the radiant abyss that surrounds, that emanates from our (Pat and I) oneness with God! Delicious freshness; light without a source. The dream tonight is of Pat and I going swimming at Wasaga Beach. Hand in hand we walk into the still water in the pearl white/blue light. “What needs could we have, … we are full now, not empty. We are in Love Himself, not lonely. Strong, not weak… we have begun to love truly.” [apologies to C.S. Lewis ‘The Great Divorce’]

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Those that drink the water that I will give them will never be thirsty again.


Patricia and I were friends, classmates, a couple, lovers, husband and wife, companions but there is more deep within. A mystic union. a spiritual presence, a quiet love and yes what she described as hermits together. Most important we seemed to have found a place with God – what C.S. Lewis calls God and us. Think of the soul as an immortal entity within us that goes on living after death and remains joined by God in marriage forever. The emphasis placed on life, not death. Ecclesiastes 12:7: “the dust returns to the earth, where it once was, and the soul returns to God who gave it.” God is Love and all the joys of heaven flow from the joys of marriage love like sweet water from a running spring.

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Joined by God


What does Love actually feel like? Both Pat and I developed a sense of calm familiarity, stronger than friendship and more intimate. We felt grounded and content in each others presence. There was and is a divine force telling us we were on the right path. Yes we felt God had joined us together as ONE yet we were still two independent persons — dare I say like the Trinity. OK I am living now without her physical presence; but quite honestly I don’t want to I need her spiritual presence in my life. Love really is forever! A woman’s heart should be so entwined in God that a man can only find her by seeking God. Yes God is LOVE! Amen.

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God and us!


There are two souls you know, that every married couple knows, you and the spouse God joined you with as one with each other and himself. In creation and in marriage God made/makes two one. We are from the beginning one with each other and God – God and us. We put ourselves in his hands for this he created us. He is perfect — perfect in love, wisdom, joy, beauty, and immortality. In marriage we are so knit together in the love of God and us that others say “Look how they love each other.” God has brought us together in complete unity. Indeed God is Love and Love is God. “Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God.” [1 John 4:7]

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A taste of Heaven?


“I order you, O sleeper, to awake. I did not create you to be held a prisoner in hell. Rise from the dead, for I am the life of the dead. Rise up, work of my hands, you who were created in my image.” From St. John the Evangelist’s Office of Readings

Could it be that our dreams of our departed beloved are actual small finite experiences of what it will be like when we join her in Heaven? It is a Given that there is an afterlife; the empty tomb is one of the great proofs that Christ has risen from the dead and that we will too if it is God’s will.

In Acts 2:17 “… God declares that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh, and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams…” In the Bible, there are other passages where dreams are a taste of what is to be:” … behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, “Joseph, son of David, do not fear to take Mary as your wife, for that which is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit.” [Matthew 1:20]

You still love your spouse in Heaven; you shall still love your beloved spouse because the very nature of God is Love and God has joined you together as one! Marriage was created by God and you are joined together as ONE – two persons but one entity.  Every so often your loved ones will open the door from Heaven and visit you in a Dream. Just to whipper “I love you still” and to remind you they are still with you, just in a different way. She is letting you know she is okay, and still a part of your life.  Browning was right, “I love thee with the breath, Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.” Yes, these dreams are a gift from God for God is Love!

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Quiet Love … eyes to see and words to tell


Before we married Pat wrote: “there seems to be quite a bit of harmony between our personalities.” What did that mean? The healthiest way two people can interact with each other is to be close and at the same time to be truly interdependent. This is where two people, actually like each other and become involved with each other, but with neither sacrificing themselves or compromising their values. What they have is a balanced relationship, and unfortunately it is not all that common. It develops into what we had, Quiet Love. Quiet love primarily means feeling safe and comfortable, experiencing new stages of life, growing personally and as a couple, and supporting each other. Patricia and I were lucky enough to discover that quiet, intense love that is basic to life itself! We had the eyes to see and the words to tell the truths that are most real to each other.

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Through the glass darkly


“Love is who you are. When you don’t live according to love, you are outside of being. You’re basically not real or true to yourself. When you love, you are acting according to your deepest being, your deepest truth. You are operating according to your dignity.” –Richard Rohr

Heaven is the reality, earth the reflection. To die is to be born into heaven. The Presence we feel of our departed loved one is her realty. We think therefore God exists in us: we exist so that God is aware of Himself. God made it so. Earth is on the other side of the door looking through God’s looking glass.

When we examine physical reality, we are looking though a glass darkly and seeing only reflections.  We see only an imperfect image. There is no beginning and no end, reality is eternal. It is like looking into your own mind: all you see is the thinking. It is the thinking that tells you, you exist.

The resurrected body moves through the image and the image knows it not. The image is the refection. When you die the mirror shatters, and you see and pass freely from image to reality and if God wills, back again like Christ did. It happens when you pray – your loved one shines with the glory of the Kingdom where she has gone. We love God because God is reality and to know reality is to know God.

I cannot prove any of this because I am on the image side of the mirror. We were created in the image of God to reflect God back to himself through our loving one another and God. We know Him though His Love. We know him because Christ was transformed from image to reality and this was, according to the Gospels witnessed by Peter, James, and John. Christ died so that we could see! God is LOVE!

“For we did not follow cunningly devised fables when we made known to you the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ but were eyewitnesses of his majesty. For he received from God the Father honour and glory when such a voice came to him from the excellent glory: ‘This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.’ And we heard this voice which came from heaven when we were with Him on the holy mountain.” (2 Peter 1:16-18).

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A Dream or a Vision?


I dreamt I was in the tail of a Church procession following a couple to be joined together by God. We entered a cathedral with a very long nave walking slowly toward the Chancel and alter. The church was dark, and I felt like I was walking through a tunnel with a very high ceiling. The procession didn’t stop at the alter; it started through it. The alter was a door to a bright light behind it. There was a curtain of white flowers and the priest was Christ. I saw my beloved Patricia entwined among the flowers of the curtain and I wasn’t allowed through. Pat smiled at me and I whispered “Hi Pat.” She whispered, “I love you!” just like she did more than 50 years ago in that small quiet serious whisper she used for intimacy. As then I responded, “does that mean you will marry me.” After all, the procession was like a wedding. Her answer was the same now as then, a whispered “Yes.” Then the rest of the procession when through the alter and Pat merged with Christ and the light. Her face lingered amongst the flowers of the curtain. The alter like door closed and it was dark. It was not my time yet. I was alone in the nave ready to wake. Death is neither a whimper nor a bang; it is the great joy of joining your beloved and Christ at the Heavenly Alter.

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Facts are many, but the truth is one.


We seek God as an individual because we were taught he is  the unity of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit as three persons in one Godhead. And from John: In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.” God is life itself; He is that Light. In the Near Death Experience, He is that light we see at the end of the tunnel. In T.S. Eliot’s ” we have lingered in the chambers of the sea, sea-girls wreathed in seaweed red and brown. Till human voices wake us and we drown.” He is that sea of chambers. We live as one chamber of God, one packet of light reaching to the light at the end of the tunnel. We are part of the Oneness of all life. It is not so much us becoming one with each other and God but us becoming one with everything. Just like “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was God.” Yes God is everything and we are one with Him and everything. Pope Gregory wrote in Dialogues; ” Anyone who has seen a little of the light of the creator finds all of creation small, because the innermost hidden place of the mind is opened up by that light and is so much expanded in God it stands above the world. In Fact, the soul that sees this is ever raised above itself in the light of God.” After the death of a loved one we have become so attuned over a lifetime with her to her presence that we just know and feel that Presence nearby – two hermits as one together forever. As Rabindranath Tagore said “Death is not extinguishing the light; it is only putting out the lamp because the dawn has come.” Anyone who does not love does not know God, because “God is love” 4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 1 Corinthians 13 4-7

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