Counting our blessings:

Thinking about our 48 years together I realize we really had a beautiful happy marriage. Yes this is absolutely true: “Patricia and I  were lucky enough to discover that quiet, intense love that is basic to life itself; it is seldom found in real life. We had the eyes to see and the words to tell the truths that are most real to each other.” O there were stresses and tensions but nothing serious. Pat achieved what she wanted above all else: to be a published author. We have a son with whom we are well pleased and two gorgeous granddaughters with whom we are also well pleased. The last 10 years were perfect since pensions and benefit packages meant we had no financial worries and were relatively well off.. We had even planned and paid for a return to Nova Scotia  the REAL holiday Pat and I so wanted. Pat’s departure was in Peace in her sleep with none of the pain she so feared and she died at home where she wanted to die. She is in Heaven now waiting for me in our place in Heaven Christ promised.  Okay I’m feeling real pain but by not being called first I spared Pat this pain.  Only thing that could have made things really perfect would have been  dying  together hand in hand asleep in our bed. But it was not to be and now I wait in pain to join her in Heaven. Surely I can’t be criticized for not waiting patiently on God’s will  or plan for me and praying daily that God take me now to join Pat in Heaven. Even Christ on the cross prayed for death though He added “Not my will but Thine.”