Jesus taught that “Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.” (Luke 17:21) That Kingdom of Heaven within us is our inner most essence, the very image of God He created us to be.
God also made us One in marriage. Pat and I were attuned and responded directly to one another, our innermost aliveness and quality. In her own words, “You love me royally, as I love you, / seated together in our garden Kingdom, / keeping up our silent conversation, / clothed in robes of joy of every hue.”
God is love and we touch the essence of God when we love. God is the white light of Love. He is both the lover and the Loved, God through Christ and in Marriage has made us One. God is that love!
I sometimes feel I know that One. Then it all falls away and I become the lost one, lonely and missing my beloved Patricia. Where is my beloved, was she ever here? In Pat’s words, “I live in the soft prison of my desires, / Home of all my comforts. / There is no other tenant, / And nothing breaks the silence.”
That emptiness around my heart is at the very Centre of my Oneness with my departed spouse. It is the true me, the centre of our soul. It determines my relationship with Pat and God. I need to awaken to the dawn where Pat is – in our Garden Kingdom.