Remarkable experience this morning!
I awoke to a feeling of warmth and the presence of Pat in that empty space around my heart. I was thinking or rather reciting the 23rd Psalm but a version where the singular became the third person – like YH to YHWH. Pat was present with me and I don’t think I was dreaming but we were reciting together.
“23 The Lord is our shepherd; we shall not want. 2 He maketh us to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth us beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth our soul: he leadeth us in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we shall fear no evil: for thou art with us; thy rod and thy staff they comfort us. 5 Thou preparest a table before us in the presence of our enemies: thou anointest our head with oil; our cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow us all the days of our life: and we will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
I surrendered to the thoughts of the Psalm. Grief is the valley of the shadow of death. Pat and I had walked through that valley. Back in time we were preparing our wedding table – His hand was on the cutting knife with ours. I was comfortable with these feelings flowing over us. – we were living Psalm 23. I surrendered to a feeling of intense prayer and great peace. The Lord truly is our shepherd.
The dawn had come. Pat was within me. She filled that empty space. I was whole again. We were One – of no other family relationship does God make two One! Pat, me, our quiet love all three in one moment (about 20 minutes) of remarkable warmth and peace. I wanted it to last forever. This was my morning meditation on Psalm 23. We were heart to heart with each other. Surely goodness and mercy will be with Pat and I forever.