Inward Reaching

Most the time when reaching deep within yourself searching for the ends of your being and your departed beloved spouse, you find only the memories. Memories with all the love, feelings and reality of when they occurred – a video playing in your mind.  But this isn’t the presence you are looking for. That requires going deeper into yourself and then somehow in surprise reaching into the void that is both in you and outside you. You feel almost dizzy, looking at the world outside you through a frosted glass.  At the same time, you are both inside yourself and outside your self – looking at yourself and your beloved.  You feel rather than see, you feel great comfort, peace and awe.  And you feel all the love and sadness you have ever felt. Yes, it is two spirits touching. You have found the very real presence of your departed beloved spouse. NO! you are not going mad; it is how it is in the Kingdom of Heaven. There is no time or space you just exist as one with your beloved. You are not going mad. You have caught the great white whale. Doesn’t last long but it lasts long enough to give you peace. You know when your time comes, she will be there holding your hand, comforting you. This is what soulmate love is all about.

About thebows99krug

Hi, I am Eric, a retired librarian. I was born in St. Michael's Hospital, Toronto and raised in the downtown area north of the Art Gallery, south of the University of Toronto. I went to Orde Street Public School, Harbord C.I., University College at the UofT and the UofT's Faculty of Library and Information Science. I meet my wife Patricia at FLIS; our first date was on November 15, 1968. We were engaged February 14, 1969 and married on June 21, 1969. Our family includes son, James; daughter-in-law, Erin; (both writers), grand-daughters, Vivian and Eleanor; and Sonic, a very friendly ginger tabby. My beloved wife died January 7, 2017 and our 19 year old cat Pooka died January 8, 2017. I would like to hear from any other class of '63 alumni of Harbord C.I. and class of '67 alumni of UofT's University College.
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