Looking for her presence


Had a revelation last night during the “hour of the wolf” – that period in the night between 3:00 and 6:00 am when you awaken and can’t get back to sleep. A nightmare awoke me – Pat had left me and I couldn’t find her! I was now wide awake in great fear. Suddenly dreaming while still awake. Pat and I were together again doing the Vulcan mind meld (yes we are Star Trek fans). “My mind to your mind, your mind to my mind. We are one in God forever.” Not only in my dreams; she and I are One in heart, soul, mind and God! Our strength is in this truth. Pat is my mirror! If she withdraws, I am sad and empty or even angry and cannot get back to sleep. We know each other in and though each other’s minds; we know ourselves in each other as One in God. It is through Love that we understand each other. Pat’s presence in me is from God; only God can do such Oneness and bestow her presence in me. So I trust in God. As Fr Richard Rohr says, “Simply put, if death is not possible for the Christ, then it is not possible for anything that “shares in the divine nature” (2 Peter 1:4). God is by definition eternal, and God is Love (1 John 4:16), which is also eternal (1 Corinthians 13:13) and this same Love has been planted in our hearts (Romans 5:5, 8:9) by the Spirit dwelling within us.” Death and resurrection are where marriage leads us. Patricia Bow is reborn, resurrected as LIGHT! She is everywhere, all around me and within me. I can never lose her. Love is stronger than death and is forever. Two persons made one by God. And so she is found and I fall back to sleep!

About thebows99krug

Hi, I am Eric, a retired librarian. I was born in St. Michael's Hospital, Toronto and raised in the downtown area north of the Art Gallery, south of the University of Toronto. I went to Orde Street Public School, Harbord C.I., University College at the UofT and the UofT's Faculty of Library and Information Science. I meet my wife Patricia at FLIS; our first date was on November 15, 1968. We were engaged February 14, 1969 and married on June 21, 1969. Our family includes son, James; daughter-in-law, Erin; (both writers), grand-daughters, Vivian and Eleanor; and Sonic, a very friendly ginger tabby. My beloved wife died January 7, 2017 and our 19 year old cat Pooka died January 8, 2017. I would like to hear from any other class of '63 alumni of Harbord C.I. and class of '67 alumni of UofT's University College.
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