Just because we are alone after the death of our spouse does not mean we will continue to feel that painful feeling of inner emptiness or loneliness. She still is One with you and you love and valuing being One with her. Don’t feel guilty that you can thoroughly enjoy your solitude, and still connect with her in that ONENESS. She is within that emptiness around your heart and you must stay open to that connection. We must be willing to feel our grief and lovingly manage it and learn from it. She once was there so she is still there deep within you. When we are connected with ourselves and God we can connect with our beloved spouse through being “God and us”. We remember her together with her in the Body and the Blood of Christ. So eat and drink in remembrance of Him and her. .Remember thy beloved in faith and fear and be present with her.- rejoice in your Oneness. Love is stronger than death. There is no before, no after, only love itself.