I need some help with this. Yes I am aware of my thinking. Yes I feel Patricia Bow lives and loves within me and in the arms of Christ. And Yes I feel her presence daily. Love is forever there is no end! But in that cavern inside my head, where is the God within? It is very dark in this cavern. Where is God? I pray, Heavenly Father, through Jesus Christ send your Holy Spirit to fill me with the light promised in Pentecost; that I may be a channel of the love of God in the world. I believe, help me in my unbelief. Light my darkness. Amen.

Much to my surprize, in that cavern in my head, it is not dark; there is light! There is no sun, no stars only the radiant abyss that surrounds, that emanates from our (Pat and I) oneness with God! Delicious freshness; light without a source. The dream tonight is of Pat and I going swimming at Wasaga Beach. Hand in hand we walk into the still water in the pearl white/blue light. “What needs could we have, … we are full now, not empty. We are in Love Himself, not lonely. Strong, not weak… we have begun to love truly.” [apologies to C.S. Lewis ‘The Great Divorce’]