In a Quiet state or going mad?

Sometimes when feeling deep within myself for myself, my beloved spouse and God, my rational mind thinks I’m going mad.  There is nothing there, but dreams and I am alone. I can not awake to that great dawn until I die. But with Grace I can awake to another life within myself, my beloved spouse and God – in the fellowship of the Communion of Saints be a partaker of the Kingdom of God within. I believe I can know a difference consciousness than what I experience all the time in my daily life. Grace leads to the Presence of the One we are by marriage, to the Presence of Patricia and to the Kingdom of God within.  I feel the new order within, and I am a part of it. Because it is difficult to feel this sensation of the whole with my rational mind, I must escape my physical sensations. Am I an unconscious slave to my sensations or a conscious servant of God?  I need to know myself as ONE with the three within me. Close but not mad.  

About thebows99krug

Hi, I am Eric, a retired librarian. I was born in St. Michael's Hospital, Toronto and raised in the downtown area north of the Art Gallery, south of the University of Toronto. I went to Orde Street Public School, Harbord C.I., University College at the UofT and the UofT's Faculty of Library and Information Science. I meet my wife Patricia at FLIS; our first date was on November 15, 1968. We were engaged February 14, 1969 and married on June 21, 1969. Our family includes son, James; daughter-in-law, Erin; (both writers), grand-daughters, Vivian and Eleanor; and Sonic, a very friendly ginger tabby. My beloved wife died January 7, 2017 and our 19 year old cat Pooka died January 8, 2017. I would like to hear from any other class of '63 alumni of Harbord C.I. and class of '67 alumni of UofT's University College.
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